The Fear of Judgement

The Fear of Judgement

I think. A lot. And in my head I have constant narratives running, but never really going anywhere. When I thought about how to channel those narratives, I decided on a blog.But I'm nervous. Nervous that no-one is interested, but more nervous of being judged. I don't know why but this is one of my greatest fears.I have always worried too much about what other people think of me, if I'm not the kind of person that they want me to be, or if they don't like the person that I am. Does anyone else feel like that? It is quite a crippling outlook and I want to do something about it.I started Slimming World and found that some of the people I met at the group were sending me supportive messages on facebook. And I was horrified. Horrified that other people I knew would see that I was doing Slimming World, therefore realise I had gained a lot of weight since my school / university / early career days. And that they would judge me for it.I removed the messages off my wall, at the time hoping no-one would see them. Now, I can't believe that I did that. Someone was genuinely caring about me, and I cared more about what other people thought. People, I might add, who don't matter. As the old saying says; 'Those that matter don't mind, and those that mind don't matter.'So I need to put that into action. Be myself. My whole self - not filtering out parts so as to manage other people's opinions of me. It’s a challenge, particularly in this age of perfection, filters on photos, check-ins in glamorous places and the projected image of oneself. But a challenge I'm ready to take on.So this year, 2016, I'm not only taking on the challenge of blogging, but also of being myself and not worrying what other people think of me.

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Our New House

I referenced in my original post that I had recently 'half-moved' - well now I've fully moved! And let me tell you, it has been stressful!

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We sold our house in the summer and completed in early November. We had found a house but had a survey which was pretty damming and even the surveyor advised against purchasing it unless we had a large financial resource (which we do not!). So it was back to the drawing board of finding a new home, but we progressed with the sale of our original house and moved into my parents in the first week of November.

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In late September we found a gorgeous house in a great location that had literally just come on the market. We put in an offer after the second viewing and it was all go from there.

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After much stress and chasing of solicitors, we finally got the keys to our new dream home on 11th December 2015! I've put up some pictures of the empty spaces and will provide updates as we progress.

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Slimming World Spicy Meatballs

Slimming World Spicy Meatballs

This recipe is really easy, and is packed full of flavour – no-one wants to feel deprived when they’re watching what they eat!

Slimming World Meatballs in Chunky Tomato Sauce - Syn Free
Slimming World Meatballs in Chunky Tomato Sauce - Syn Free

 

For the Meatballs

5% mince - 500g

Mixed Herbs

Egg

Dried chilli flakes

Oregano

Black Olives

Sun-dried tomatoes

Red onion

White onion

Garlic

For the sauce

Chopped tomatoes

Beef stock

Onion

Red onion

Mushrooms

Red pepper

Black Olives

Garlic

Mixed Herbs

Oregano

Sweetener

Worcestershire sauce

Method

First, dice up the onion and red onion that will be used in both the sauce and the meatballs themselves. Put a small handful of each into a hand blender bowl. Add the sun-dried tomatoes, oregano, mixed herbs, some olives and garlic. Blend these up to make a fine paste.

Next, start the sauce. Dry-fry the remaining red and white onion, add a little garlic and lots of mixed herbs and oregano. Dice up some red pepper, some black olives and a few mushrooms - 3 or 4 will do. Add these to the pan and let them soften a little. Add the chopped tomatoes and the beef stock and let it simmer. Add a splash of Worcestershire sauce, a little salt and pepper and a pinch of sweetener.

Add the paste you made earlier to a large mixing bowl with the 5% mince. Mix together (by hand I find works best) and sprinkle over dried chilli flakes to taste and add an egg. Be careful at this point - dried chilli flakes go a long way!

Separate into 16-20 meatballs. You can either grill or dry-fry the meatballs for around 10-12 minutes. Cook spaghetti and drain, serve meatballs on top, and finish off with the chunky tomato sauce.

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